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Wednesday, 20 April 2011

Me vs. Me: The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

A few years ago, I wrote a song called Me. Vs Me. I was first starting out in the music business in London. 22 years old and full of hope, dreams, energy, fierce determination and also some naivety, all wrapped up into one. Nothing was going to stop this kid from making her childhood dreams come true. lol Looking back, I laugh at myself, humbled by all that I've learned from then till now. Am I still full of hope? Yep. Do I still have dreams? Definitely yep. What about the energy? haha Well I'm trying to keep up with those energy levels I once had in my early 20's. lol Fierce determination? Hmmm..more like a calm determination...and as for naivety, I'm sure I still have some of it, but hey, if that's what got me up to this point, then so be it. Sometimes having some naivety is a good thing. You're not clouded by cynicism, and when you have a dream that you are determined to pursue, trust me, cynicism is not what you need to get you where you wanna go. ;)

I am my own best friend and I am also my own worst enemy. Sound familiar? lol As I've been traveling on this journey, I've also been learning more and more about myself and I can thankfully say with great relief, that I have become more best friends with myself then the enemy. My teens and early 20's were definitely a period of trial and tribulation. Lots of them...but that's what growing up is all about - trying to figure out who you are, what makes you tick, and what you feel good and proud to be in.

I remember every birthday when I was about to blow the candles on the cake, or when I had an eyelash in my hand, or when a ladybug landed on me, I could make a wish, and hoped and prayed so hard that the wish would come true. I'd wish for getting a record deal by the time I was 16 years old, so I didn't feel like a failure, or I wished that I'd land that big acting role I auditioned for the other day, or I wished that the boy I sat next to in school, Chris, would suddenly notice me, and see beyond the geeky glasses, and zits on my face, and tell me that he really liked me. I wished and wished so hard till I was blue in the face for these things. Did they come true? No. Not at the time they didn't, and it felt awful when those things I wished so hard for, didn't come true. I was www.frustrated.com lol

Funny how now, the things that I wish for are so different. When I blow out the candles on my birthday cake, or blow away the eyelash that's landed on my hand, or when the ladybug walks up and down my arm, all I wish for is to be happy, and to continue to being happy and being grateful for all the good things in my life: my family, my friends, good health, my superheroes, lol, and the people who inspire me every day of my life in this fascinating and amazing industry I work in. Anything else, really, is a bonus.

It's so easy for us to forget the good things we do have.  I forget sometimes, as I’m always thinking two steps ahead. And when those not so great days happen, (as they do for all of us), my family and friends are quick to remind me of what I have achieved already. It's really easy for us to be hard on ourselves, but I guess that's because we care, and caring is a great thing!

When I brush my teeth in the morning, staring at the mirror, looking to see if any adolescent like zits have blessed my face that day, or tell myself not to ever become another casualty for needless botox, like a lot of 20 something girls in la la land, I remind myself that I haven’t failed, that I am trying my best every day to bring myself one step closer to my dreams. Most importantly, I remind myself that at the end of the day, I can look back on all of this 50 years from now, and say to myself, ‘Girl, you did good. You tried, you worked hard, and you gave everything your best shot, and that’s what really matters.’

Me vs. Me? No...now, it’s just me, and I’m cool with the imperfect me. Are you? :) 



Yours Always, 


The Girl In The Pink Glasses xo

21 comments:

  1. fab as always so inspiring :) xx

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  2. LOVE THIS. So inspiring, as per usual. I can definitely relate to this. Thank you so much :) By the way, you still look as though you are in your early 20s ;) Love you loads xox

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  3. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!! your blogs just get better and better!! you make me so proud to be one of your superheroes
    thankyou for being you
    lozza
    xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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  4. karen, you are perfect!. this blog is uh-mayzing. its made me think to just be myself and be happy with myself!. your blogs are so inspiring, i can relate to them to such. lots of love xoxo

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  5. That was truely amazing... Wirting is your thing aswell.. dont stop being who you want to be and just remember the geeky glass is the true you and no one should put you down for it. becoming your coventry superhero was one of the best things in life to do because you care and you make you fans feel cared for. bless you for all your dreams that has come true, love you lots and dont stop dreaming. xxxxxx

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  6. Amazing, inspiring as allways. That end bit has puzzled me but i think i'm cool

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  7. your an inspiration to everyone out there, your blogs have made me believe i can do anything in life, theres no path that i HAVE to go down, its my choice, your my idol and thankyou for being such a role model!x

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  8. Amazing Love it!!! You are so inspirational and everytime I read one of your blogs or listen to you read them out on twitcam and find myself smiling to myself and really does put me in a good mood!!! :0) you are amazing and really can't wait for the next blog... You are a fantastic writer!!! Lots of love Jess Xx

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  9. I LOVE IT!!
    It brought a tear to my eye!!! They just keep getting better and better!
    Mucho Love
    xxxx

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  10. elliceelizabeth20 April 2011 at 22:35

    Your blogs really are amazing, wish i could write like you can x

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  11. Your words are inspiring and words of wisdom, i can relate to every word!I look up to you, you have worked so hard to get to where you are and i admire how your so caring and fun and how your soo grateful! Us superheroes look towards you as our friend and someone we can turn to this blog refelects this, keep typing look forward to your bookx much love madeleine/ madspaigee

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  12. Karen your blogs are so inspiring and completely stunning! Your a brilliant writer, I love your blogs because I can always relate to them and they make me think about my life from a different angle. Keep dreaming and doing what you are cause you've done amazingly well already and theres so much more in the future for you :) You're also a great role model to people of all ages. I'm not going to answer the end question yet, coz being only 14 i'm not sure i even know! lol ;) Guess i've come a long way already and i've still got a lot to learn until i can say i'm completely cool with being imperfect lol :P loads of love xxx

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  13. karen yet again such a fab blog. They never fail to inspire me, they have helped me to believe in myself again. You are such a determind person and i want to be like that when I'm older. You are such a great role model to me and you teach me so many lessons about life. You were once a little girl with a dream and your dreams came true i just hope oneday my dreams will also come true. I am not going to answer the last question because im only 12 and i dont know, but in the future i will let you know my answer, thanks for being you karen. Lots of love xoxox :)

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  14. WOW, another fabulous blog. How do you do it K? lol. Yet again, this one inspires me. I can really relate to this blog.
    To answer your question, yes - although I wasn't for awhile, I am now happy to say that I am totally cool with the imperfect me.
    Thanks for being such a great role model, you're someone I will always admire. Lots of love Jenny Wilson (@JenWilts) xxxx

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  15. Karen, yet again another amazing blog, you never fail to inspire me, I can relate to pretty much all of your blogs! Thank you for inspiring me, shall look forward to your next blog, as always!
    Loadsa love Lucy xxx (@loobydoox)

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  16. This has been my favourite blog yet. You truly are an inspiration to each and everyone of us.
    At the moment, it is Me vs Me & i'm not quite sure what it is in life I should be doing. That'll change though, i'm only 17, I have my whole life to work that out. I have my dreams which I am trying to chase after and i'm learning to deal with my imperfections. Much love xxxx

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  17. oooo WOW i LALALALOVE this blog i think its my favorite so far ;) your such an ispiring person yeey..... Thankyou for being the amazin person that you are teaching us new things all the time helping us see things in a new different better ways helping us to understand you really are a SUPERHERO :D
    lots of love
    xxxxxx

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  18. Another great blog :) They're right, you are inspiring, keep pushing on towards your goals and dreams, because I am sure you will reach all of them in time!
    In the words of Cheryl Cole 'If its worth having its worth fighting for..' Haha, cheesy yet true :)

    Xxx

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  19. Omg Karen that was so inspiring, you really need to write an autobiography!!!
    lots of love

    xxxxxx

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  20. OMG!! Amazingg, i love youu so muchhh.
    your so inspiring, everyone should be like you!!
    lots of love
    xxx

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  21. So inspiring im only 16 and i think exactly the same as you!x i struggle accademically but i have always dreamed about my dream job and i am determined to get there and even if i get knocks i have people like you to inspire me even more!!
    lots of love karen xxx

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